… It doesn’t pay off.

I got a call from my co-worker asking if I could cut my vacation short because her husband’s grandmother died. I feel horrible about it because she’s a good friend and I know what it’s like to lose a family member you love, but I ended up telling her no. I don’t think it’s completely unreasonable of me, especially since it’s not like we don’t have other co-workers who could fill in for either of us. There have been a few times when I have been the only person in the office for a whole day (even two days in a row at times…) where I’ve had to do not only my job, but two other jobs as well. Sometimes I feel that because I’m dependable, I get picked on a lot. I feel that if I were anyone else, I wouldn’t have been asked to cut my vacation short.

I hardly ever take time off. The last vacation I had was way back in January when I took a couple days off to travel to San Diego. I haven’t had a day to just sit back and relax in forever it seems. This particular co-worker is always taking time off or leaving early for some reason or another. She leaves sometimes at the busiest parts of the day and everybody else has to take up her slack. I know there are things you can’t control like a family member passing away, but I don’t feel that it’s 100% fair to ask this of me either. Why can’t anyone else step up to the plate? Why is it always me?

I feel so selfish :(

I’ve decided to start a blog again. I honestly think I’m too A.D.D. for the internet sometimes, prime evidence being any type of social network site I’ve signed up for in the past. I really do have good intentions though. I’m actually doing pretty well with the Twitter trend, but there’s only so much thought and emotion you can put into a 140 character update. I needed a place to vent and ramble without restrictions, hence the rebirth of this thing. So if you’re out there and watching, welcome to the ride.